What does it mean to be consciously connected to your core?
This question is worth the inquiry and the time to explore, although it may not always be easily available to discover with a quick glance. It will need time and patience to dig beyond the surface. The reason I created this website and the reason I write is to provide myself space to process, grow and be witnessed by others as I delve into my core. I know that exposing my own pathway is an avenue for others to discover their own. With my vulnerability and sharing of my healing journey, healing is then made available to others who choose the path.
So in this adventure of life, I've been actively digging away into the core of myself to discover the secret magic hidden within. With full trust and knowing that I am made of stars, the inquiry has been a long road of exploration and discovery. With this deep longing to know myself, I've made and destroyed relationships in service of my path to understand and know my core, my essence, beyond any shadow of doubt. The world is full of obstacles, distracting and bombarding me as I travel along in a direction of my choosing. Sometimes I fall off course and I forget where I was going. I walk down a path in a different direction I originally planned and still yolk out the lesson of the experience in service of my best self. From there, I redirect and start again, reflecting on the messages I've received, trusting it was all part of what I needed.
After moving away from San Diego, California to Austin, Texas, I feel like a newborn baby. Leaving behind much of what I knew, my karmic experiences are raw and present in my being. Fear, and pain are swirling around my core. While love is present, I waver back and forth between the two extremes. New people, especially Abe Metzenthin with Happy Water Healing, has been helping to expose my weaknesses and has been unwavering in presence and acknowledgment of their disservice to all realms of my life.
Although the process is desired, I'm to a point where I feel overwhelmed with my flaws. Overwhelmed with the fear that has shaped my actions and my words. Overwhelmed with the prospect of changing it all right now. Overwhelmed with the desire to be magnificent. Overwhelmed with the desire to release my fears and be the best possible Aimee I can be to support myself and others in their healing journey.
As I sit back and rest into the Aimee I love, know and trust. I relax. I give myself space to breathe and to feel the love from myself, friends and family. I return to a place of gratitude for myself and the path I've been on and am choosing every day. I move into a space of loving and accepting myself for who I am and in all the variety of ways that I show up. I am not perfect, but I am me.
When I first moved to San Diego when I was 15, my mom gave me a book, The Four Agreements: A practical Guide to Personal Freedom by Don Miguel Ruiz. Sixteen years later, I'm still referring to this gem to help me find my power in personal relationships as I bear witness to my core that embodies a balance of love and fear.
If you are unfamiliar with the Four Agreements, here is a list of them. They are described in beautiful detail in the book.
With these Toltec words of wisdom, I find solace in my journey. I find forgiveness in my being and freshness to the day. As I continue, I still long to find a lasting place of peace; an unwavering resilience, strength and knowing of my being and my purpose on this earth.
I love and appreciate you all for bearing witness to my path. Thank you for your presence and your being. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Aimee, 30 years old views life as a gift and an opportunity to live your dreams. Stick around to hear how she does it and supports you in doing it, too.